Formal, Graduation and Schoolies.

Well, it happened. As of the 16th of November, 2012, I have officially graduated.

My formal was probably the least exciting thing of my graduating week. It doesn't interest me to put on a pretty dress and act like I am a princess. However, all the other girls were so beautiful. Makes me wish i kind of put more time into how I looked. But i guess this is how I looked.

Matt and I have made it through 2 years together and I couldn't ask for anyone better. He has stuck with me through all the shit. I'm forever greatful for his support and kindness. 

Graduation came and went, and this was what I was really excited about. This is the moment I had to face the end of childhood and accept the fact that I'm now an adult and need to start making proper decisions. I can no longer be involved in petty drama and fights. I have to start living life for myself and starting to grow up.

That's my friend Rebecca, 5 years of friendships and we are still close as ever. She makes things perfect. I could always count on her to be there for me in any situation and from crushes, to heartbreak, from anorexia to an unhealthy relationship with food, from fights to friendship. She is truly in it with me until the end. <3

Last but not least, is my favourite thing I was looking to; Schoolies. For those of you who don't know, schoolies is an event held at tourist locations where all that years graduates rent a hotel and party, for about 3 weeks. I was booked in at the Meriton Serviced Apartments in broadbeach, and it was amazing.

The view from my apartment on the 17th Floor :D

The hotel and some of my favourite shots.

Vienna, Matt and Corey :)

Matt giving Harley a sexual look.

Vienna's pretty shot <3

Vienna and I wearing our "Schoolies; 2012 Hellz Yeah" shirts.

Almost a group shot. hehe ^_^

This comes to the end of my crazy 2 weeks. I'm now an adult. I plan to start making a future and hopes for myself. I think I'll start with travelling. 

Friendship

It's getting late and I am having trouble clearing my thoughts. So while these memories are fresh in my mind, I am going to try to get them down.

Tonight, I hung out with Monique, she's a girl I work with and one of my very best friends. When I'm with her, I laugh and smile and sing and dance easier, she makes life and my shifts at work more enjoyable for the few hours that we get to hang out. Tonight, we went to the movies to see 'Kath and Kimderella' (which was actually quite funny) and the entire cinema was empty. Just the two of us. It was so good, we had such a blast, racing, dancing, singing, shouting, giggling. Does anybody else have a friend like that?

Our friendship is so natural and light and fluffy, we can talk about everything and it's good to know I have someone willing to listen to me and tell me secrets, as well as keeping mine. She's a bold and beautiful girl and I see this friendship as being something I will hold onto forever.

                              

I've never been one for friendships, in reality, I always figured I never really made strong ones with a lot of people, I had/have a few really good ones, however, this is the first time I can truly say I have a friend who makes me feel light and fluffy and silly and happy, all in one.

That Is A Friendship Worth Fighting For.

What I'm all about.

I suppose I never really stated what I'm all about, so this will be a short post stating what and why.

I started this blog from the idea my secret keeper (nickname for a friend) gave me. He is writing a blog too and I figured it would be a good way to vent my feelings and let it all out, in well written and hopefully structured paragraphs.

I had, and to an extent still have, a lot on my mind. I'm not really a one sided card. There's a lot to me, which sometimes even I don't understand. I guess you could call it multiple personalities, but I don't think that's right, there's got to be more to it than that.

I am one of those, 'into everything' people. I love My Chemical Romance, the Used, Asking Alexandria, and Taylor Swift, Gaga, and Katy Perry. I love to dance, draw, write, sing, play guitar, laugh, and paint. But I also love to play video games, go for bike rides, rock out to Nirvana in the car, and watch gore-filled movies.

Certain things about me are where it gets confusing though, part of me loves crayons and water colour and talking and acting like a child, but another part of me is fascinated by gloomy paintings, and I have a massive interest in eyes, I paint them everywhere and draw them.

I wouldn't call it 'multiple personalities' but I do feel that way sometimes. Anyhow, I started this blog to keep my mind and thoughts in order, as well as to maybe help people feel motivated or interesting and not think so highly of society and she shitty way the media portrays things.

^ That is a random photo selected out of the few I took, when I had done my makeup and attempted to look pretty. This is what I call me number one.

Those are ones I took just then. That's how I look on most days, my hair messy, no makeup or attempt in how I look. I always felt more comfortable in my own skin around people I trust but then my insecurities get the better of me, and I wear makeup and do my hair. 

In the end, I guess I'm just another girl, from Brisbane, Australia, with no direction in life and full of insecurities now. But my own blog is going to help me change that. 

Society and Fat Shame.

Why does society continue to do this to us? Because of society, we are made to think and feel a certain way about topics that are usually, somewhat shunned if you talk about it in today's average life. Society treats sex as if a topic you shouldn't discuss, what's worse is that Men are treated like legends for sleeping with multiple women, yet women are treated as... lets say.. trollops. Fuck Society.

Tonight's topic wont be about sex though. That's a later topic. Tonight's topic is FAT.

What is fat? In realistic terms, fat is having an excess amount of flesh. (oh no! not excess flesh!) However, in society terms, fat is that disgusting shit that covers you body and makes you unattractive, so you need to shed it if you ever want a boyfriend or girlfriend.

Did you know, around the late 1800's and early 1900's FAT women were seen as the epitome of beauty? If you were a larger woman in those days, you were desired by men everywhere! But the beauty standards change, and new idea's become relevant.

Why are people so afraid of fat anyway? are we all communists? Do we all fear and adore things because society and media tell us to? I'm not afraid of fat, but i used to be. I used to hate being called fat, or treated like I was fat. I would look in the mirror and hate the relfection. Nowdays, I dont care if I'm called fat, to me, it would hurt more to be called dumb, or ignorant.. or selfish. Fat is just a word and so many people fear it.

I am an extreme anti-bullying supporter. Its cruel to bully people or call them fat, but I also don't believe in bullying those that are skinny. Bullying is not cool guys. So photos like this are wrong too.

Why pick on that poor girl because of how she looks? Why degrade one type of women in hopes of making another type feel better. It doesn't have to be like that guys. <3

Signing off as me, Summer-Jane, from Australia, and here to stay positive in hopes of teaching others about relationships and give people a little bit of positivity in their day. I love you all and be proud of who you are.

Beauty and Other Social Things

Almost a year ago, I enrolled in a beauty course, thinking that I wanted to pursue my dream of working in the beauty industry as a make up artist. I've been in that course for a year now, and my ideas have changed.

Couldn't have said it better myself. ^

Coming from someone who wears make up to school and work, someone who grew up being extremely uncomfortable in their own skin, I know what it feels like to use make up as a cover up.. to feel pretty and brighter, because you feel like you're hiding everything bad, when you coat your face in make up.

It used to be even worse then that, most days I would NEVER leave the house with out wearing make up. But times have changed, and my ideas too. I wear make up to school most of the time, still, but not nearly as much as I used to. I stopped wearing it to work and TAFE, as it became a chore. I feel free in my own skin (which is far from perfect) but what's the point of caring how people are going to judge you? With or without make up, my friends still love me the same. I am still studying beauty, but my ideas have changed.

Perfection is another thing I cant wrap my head around. Society forces these ideas into our minds that perfection is everything and to be perfect is all any girl can hope for. But if every girls dream is to be perfect, no wonder teenagers today are in such a toxic environment. We already have enough problems without you trying to fuck it up, society!

No body is perfect, no one can be perfect, because perfection in the eyes of one is awful in the eyes of another.

Coming from the girl sitting at her computer in track pants and glasses, playing Maplestory, and talking to friends, be who you want to be, because some day, you might not get the chance.

P.S. For those of you who don't know what Maplestory is.

Basically an anime, 2D community thing. I love it.

Same Shit, Different Person.

That's me. The girl smiling, up there. ^

The title, I've decided is relevant because what do people do on here other then vent feelings and tell the world there problems in hopes that they will make a new friend and achieve something. It's the same shit, under a different username.

Some things about me;

Since this is my first post, I suppose I should say something relevant about myself. Well, I'm 17, in high school in Australia. Any information about me beyond that is hard to write as I, myself, don't understand myself, so how can I tell you? I guess I'll leave it up to the picture to give you an idea of what I look like.

I laugh a lot.. mostly because I find things funny, but also, because I like knowing that people around me think of me a certain way, for example, they might think I am outgoing and happy, but that's just the shell I created, knowing they would believe it.

I love bunnies. I want one so bad, but the Queensland Law says I cant have one. I plan to smuggle one in anyway. There's something fun about a soft little critter that makes your world happy, I mean look at those two?!

If you've ever seen Watership Down, those poor bunnies get the shitty end of the stick. Here's a piece of the movie. 

Those poor, poor bunnies.

That's all for tonight anyway, I'm going to go do something eventful.

Live. Love. Sing. Dream <3